With my Costa Rican adventure potentially run its course, I have been back and forth about what I should do next. I had plenty of options but I was froze in choice. Was I to return to Costa Rica or take one of the new opportunities in front of me? Or should I return home? It’s pretty clear I was at some kind of crossroads, and I did not know which road to take. One lead to more travel and adventure, one lead to structure, safety and responsibility. I knew I would thrive in both, but which did I want. Paralyzed by the alternative choices in front of me and the feeling that this decision would shape my entire future. I began to examine my life, overthinking all the various life paths in front of me, and it presented a scary picture. Each path looked worse than the other, inhibiting any possible action I might take. I was spinning down this spiral of anxiety, my life stagnated and I felt hopeless. I knew a decision needed to be made. Whichever I chose would not turn out how I envisioned.
As soon as I realised this, and realised the unpredictability of life, I was able to decide my next step. Now I have reached some conclusion, it feels like an ever impeding weight has been lifted from me. I feel alive again, ready for my next adventure. An adventure which I will reveal later this week as I mentioned on Instagram yesterday. Nothing is written in stone yet, however I feel confident and excited in the decision I have made. It is always good to have a plan, and goals to aim for throughout your life. But do not dwell on the future too much. Live in the present and make confident strides each day towards what you love and desire.
Over the last few years, I have felt the pressure of trying to figure out which path to take, and I felt this more than ever over the last week or two. While I am not sure how the next few years will go, I know I am not finished travelling to new cultures and places. I also know that my end goal will be America, and that in-between these two I will seek a career in London. A base where I have friends and believe I will be able to fully focus on work I am passionate about.
‘Life’s blows cannot break a person whose spirit is warmed by the fire of enthusiasm’
– Norman Vincent Peale
Despite the uncertain couple of weeks I have had, my time here in Florida has been thoroughly enjoyable and having my family there to support my next move certainly helped. A round up of my trip to Florida will be coming shortly.